Ritual of Tries 

Last week someone asked me,

"What does it feel like to have written a screenplay like this?"

It was a compliment. I smiled in thanks.

It made me nervous.

It sounded so static, and all “have written” in the past tense.

Then, I just thought to myself for some time, until the answer was that it feels like the sum of everything read, seen, experienced, imagined, internalized, learned, moved, ruined and built all together and in the way I knew was right for now.

Overall, it felt like, “so far…”.

And, “the things I hope we can be…”

So it made me nervous because “so far…”, “this far…” changes everyday and is not all done.

I call that progress.

(Most of the time.)

Anyway, even new mistakes are not so static and all “have written” in the past tense.

Thenx2, the first piece of influence that came to forefront of mind was an essay I stumbled upon in a very serious Anthropology textbook, my first Anthropology book. This essay is about body ritual, and I thought, if you really want to know what it's like to write as me (some people have asked), then you might want to see the pieces I've been through outside of those featured on the favorites list.

So here's one now. On body ritual.

Don't let anyone fool you and tell you it's easy (we do that sometimes, after the fact):

It is the sum of a life, of many lives and views told and lived and passed on, of much study, and, as I often mention in passing, capacity for critical thinking and imagination.

These are not mysterious gifts and abilities. There is not one magical combination or measure of any of the above.

What I mean is, anything I can do, you can certainly do better.

That’s what possibility is for.

And, when it seems big, remember: It’s the trying that counts.

For the sum of the tries is always something big!

And for that reason I am always humming to me:

Shine that light forward,
Shine here, shine forward,

And I’m on fire for you.

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